“I Know That Life Won’t Break Me…” – 185/2025

“Angels” – Robbie Williams, 1997

Fangirling: These past few weeks / months I have mentioned a few times how I can relate to some of what Robbie Williams is singing and these past few years has been talking about. Anxiety, lack of self-worth, worrying, self-sabotaging and all that comes with it. In regards to the “what he’s singing about” there needs to be an amendment though. A few days ago I watched a clip about the, let’s call it, business relationship between professional songwriters and singers. It’s not necessarily a close relationship, from that clip it felt a bit like a pick and mix buffet, from both sides. To some extent it was quite eye-opening. I for instance didn’t know or maybe have forgotten about it, that a singer gets a songwriting credit even if they just change one word of the lyrics. A tiny bit disillusioning, maybe. Anyway, I still like to believe that even Robbie has either contributed more than the occasional word to the songs that make him so relatable to me. Or at least still like to believe that he picked those songs for a reason, as in that he related to the words as well.

Anyway, the evening started with the Lottery Winners, who did a good job of warming up the crowd, as I knew they would.

From a neutral point of view I worry that a few in the crowd might have thought that Thom was a bit “much”. ADHD personality and all. I like it and I’m used to it, but others…? I don’t know. I liked their set and had a good time. And Thom was back with Robbie mid-show on the C stage. More on that later.

So, Robbie Williams: As I could have expected and as I did in fact expect, this was one BIG production. The images / material on the main screen behind the stage changed quite often, but as my seat was in the upper tier close to the stage, I didn’t see much of it. There was a good sized band, two or three female backup singers, eight or more mostly female, I think, backup dancers. Those dancers changed their outfit every other song or so, along with different props and set up scenery. Like I said: big. Not the kind of show I usually go to, maybe because it often enough feels staged to rigidly. Not staged in a phony way, but in “a every word and step was the same each night”, which it has to be at a show at this level I guess. And it was a good show.

Robbie himself was quite chatty – though again, I’d like to see if he’s doing the same bits word for word each night of if he mixes it up. Definitely chattier and definitely more outgoing than I remember him from a gig in the mid-2000. 20 years ago! Anyone who followed his career and life over the decades will understand why: Mental health wise he is in a much better place now and he openly talks about that and his struggles and his journey to this state of mind as well. Let’s call the evening a public therapy session with Robbie Williams and I was more than ok with that. I probably could relate to that so well, because I have been on a similar journey myself to a happier and healthier me these past few years.

Funnily enough Robbie also did a bit I knew quite well from Frank Turner. Have they been talking? I’m kidding. But after the first two songs (the new single “Rocket” and of course “Let Me Entertain You”) he talked about how the night is supposed to lift the weight of the world for a bit and how this only works when we – him on stage and us the audience – work together and make that happen and that he can’t do this on his own. I’m a sucker for those kind of statements, because it’s true.

“And so the story starts” he said kneeling down to sing…

“I’ve sung some songs that were lame, I’ve slept with girls on the game…”

Monsoon

The setlist was well curated to sort of tell us about Robbie’s life over the past few decades and that narrative arc worked well for me. Mid-show or so we even saw 51 year old Robbie having a conversation with an AI generated teenage Robbie: “You’re on a stadium stage, singing your own songs? NO WAY!” Gimmicky, yes, but quite adorable, I thought.

A “chat” between decades

It also made me ponder, what it must do to a person’s psyche to grow up in the public eye the way he did. How much we all (think we) knew about him and his fuck-ups. And because it mostly took place in the 21st century it’s still all available on some corner of the digital archive we call the internet. I would not want anyone be able to publicly look back on my life over these past four decades, let’s put it that way.

Looking a bit pensive

As mentioned above Thom and his acoustic guitar joined him for a medley of older and a bit lesser know songs on the C-stage. With a big wink, Robbie dissed the audience for only knowing half of the lyrics of these rarer songs. “There is more to the chorus than those first few lines. Man, you really have forgotten about me, have you?”

When Thom played the first chords of “Relight my fire” Robbie stopped him. “No, don’t play that, I’ve still got PTSD from it”. For anyone who didn’t know the story or hadn’t watched the Better Man movie, he talked about how he was supposed to be the lead in this song, but was then replaced by Gary Barlow. Thom just said, “It’s your chance to reclaim the song now, man”, so of course they did that one as well.

The backup dancers weren’t the only one who changed their outfits, Robbie did at least twice or even three times. At least for this one I did not notice the moment he slipped of stage to actually do that, which speaks for the well choreographed show all in all. I liked the pink.

Pretty in Pink

He did “I Did It My Way” in this look and then after shedding the jacket had genuinely lovely moment with a fan in the front row. There is at least one clip of it out there, but I won’t link to it as I have no idea if that person actually wants to be memorized all over the internet. Hinting you in the right direction is only half bad, I tell myself.

Lots more of great songs till he ended with a sea of lights and of course his two biggest hits “Angels” and “Feel”. What a wonderful night. Thanks Robbie.

“Angels…”

Here are a bunch more photos from the gig last week.

“Let Go of the Little Distractions” – 138/2025

Lyrics: “Polaroid Picture” – Frank Turner, 2013

For my 50th birthday some friends gifted me an “outdoor escape room” / digital scavenger hunt experience in Cologne. We did that today and it was lots of fun. We spent 2.5 hours exploring the Ehrenfeld quarter, which is characterized by it’s diverse scene. People from various countries and cultures, pubs, cafe’s, little shops and lots of street art, galeries and just a vibrant atmosphere. On the trail we had to follow we passed through various streets I remembered having parked my car in when I went to a gig nearby and we even passed a small venue I have been to once in the past decade. For Will Varley in 2018 / 2019? I don’t exactly recall. I’ve gone to quite q few gigs in Cologne in the past 20 or so years. It felt a bit weird to be back there in the daylight, but not in a bad way.

I plan to definitely be back for a proper street photography tour in Ehrenfeld the summer. Here now are just a few shots from today:

On the Big Screen – 096/2025

Since February I have been going to the cinema more often. The main reason was that a UK friend told me they had signed up for a 3-months “Unlimited Card” at their cinema and I looked into if the multiplex chain over here offered a similar deal. And they did. It’s 19,90 € / month and if I go to see two movies a month I’m already saving money.

Photo of a Oscar Sign and the name Capitol in bright lights on a building
Not the multiplex, obviously

So I signed up, because I actually do enjoy the cinema quite a lot, but haven’t been going as much as I used to many, many, years ago. There are reasons for that of course. In parts it’s lack of time, even though I could have made time for it. Then there was the steep rise in tickets prices (at the multiplex most of all). If I wanted I could also blame the lack of interesting films, but that’s only partially true or a reason. Because decades ago I used to watch all kind of films and not all of them were all that good. If I’m honest sometimes I’m prone to inertia, as in getting in the car to go to the movies feels like too much hassle these days. It’s not as if I’m watching / streaming a lot of movies at home either though.

Anyway, I thought I should do something about it: Battle the inertia and also try to recover some of the film – loving part of me. When I was at uni 25 odd years ago, I was going to that multiplex several times a month. With friends on the weekend. With another student during the week for “sneak previews” where the tickets were half-price (if even that) and you never knew what you were getting into.

One thing that has changed though is that these days I do prefer to watch movies in the “not dubbed in German” version. I guess I can blame the language options of all the streaming services for that. And there’s often only one movies shown in the original English and it’s not always the one I want to watch. Which also might lead to me going to see more German movies or see a movie in English in a different cinema (and pay for it then), like I did yesterday.

Anyway here is a quick run down (from latest to first) of the movies I’ve seen in the past few weeks:

Eden (5 April, in a small 20 seat theatre)
This was based on true events from the 1930s where a couple of Europeans try to settle on an island in the Galapagos. Wikipedia calls it a survival thriller, but that doesn’t do it justice. It is much more an intense study of the human psyche: What drives us? What separates us and what brings us together? I thought the trailer was interesting and the movie didn’t disappoint (me). It also had a few surprising twists and turns in the end.

Eden Trailer

Heldin (16 March, Multiplex)
This Swiss/German production has a documentary vibe, as it follows a female hospital nurse through one shift. There isn’t all that much happening, but it gave me a really good insight into the working life of hospital staff. I’ve basically only ever been on the other side – as family member of someone in hospital – and I’ve complained and bitched about staff to some degree. So this was a helpful reminder to see the other side. And with lack of staff and lack of resources it’s not a pretty side.

Heldin Trailer

Mickey 17 (5 March, Multiplex)
I kind of like Robert Pattinson, even though I haven’t really seen all that many films with him, I think. I admire that he managed to withdraw from the hype after Twilight and pick a variety of roles even though he probably could have easily build a career on heart throb / hero roles. He was awesome in the film and so were the other actors. Mark Ruffalo was doing such an amazing Trump impersonation in his role and he didn’t even have to dye his hair blond for it. I thought the sci-fi plot idea of identity and such was a good one. Bu I wasn’t such a fan of the creatures on the planet to be honest and I might not have picked the movie had they been featured more prominently in the trailer.

Mickey 17 Trailer

A Complete Unknown (1 March, Multiplex)
I admit I only know Dylan’s greatest hits. I know that his music played a big role in the US peace movement in the 1960s. I know he’s got a Nobel Prize and that he’s got a reputation to be difficult. I thought the movie was a good way to educate myself a bit more and it was. I like that Bob Dylan doesn’t necessarily come of as the good guy in this one. To be honest, I thought he was kind of asshole a lot of time. As a Frank Turner fangirl of course I compared Dylan’s ethos about performing to an audience to Frank’s and I’m glad Frank is more appreciative of his audience, to put it mildly. But the 1960s were a different time of course as well. I put Joan Baez on the list of musicians I need to learn more about after watching this. Timothee and Edward Norton played and sang all the parts in the film themselves, which was quite impressive.

A Complete Unknown Trailer

Wunderschöner (15 February, Multiplex, before I got the Unlimited Card)
A sequel to a German movie success from a few years ago. A sort of interconnected multi-episodes movie about women of various ages and professions and relationships. I hadn’t seen the first one at the cinema back then so had to watch it on Amazon first, but I had seen the trailer a few times and thought I might like it. And I did, even though this sequel now was more serious than the first one. Still very funny but in parts it felt like the female director (and lead actress) tried a bit too hard to comment on everything that’s making womens’ lives to hard these days. Still a great and enjoyable movie.

Wunderschöner Trailer

I’ve seen quite a few trailers for new movies as well. Some trailers over and over again, which is no surprise. There are a lot of “let’s make a sequel / retell the same story” movies out this year. Paddington. Bridget Jones. Karate Kid. Plus variations of Marvel movies of all kinds. I’m not interested in Bridget Jones, but the Karate Kid trailer is starting to wear me down. I might want to watch the original movie first, because I don’t think I’ve seen this back in the day or since. But I’m not sure. It’s been a long time ago.

Anyway, I’m quite happy that I was able to recover some of my passion for the cinema again. I hope it’ll last.