Less than three weeks from now I’ll be in Scotland. I can’t wait, because with every passing week I realize that I am in dire need of some time off. These days I try to include mini-breaks into my weeks and not stress myself too much, but there is just a lot going on at the moment. At work and at the local election campaign, where I feel like I’m juggling tons of balls and I feel so exhausted mentally.
The past few days at least I started thinking a bit more about what I want to do while I’m in Scotland (besides spending the first day catching up on sleep maybe). For the longest time I held on to the idea of “bagging a Munro”, after I already went up Ben Lomond and Schiehallion on two previous trips. I was in better physical shape back then though and had in fact been working out more and training to be able to do that. I don’t judge myself for not being in that fit state right now. It is what it is and I’m glad that I can just accept that. I was only bummed out for a moment, when I walked up and along and down some of the local hills on Friday to determine my state of “hill walking fitness”. Which made me realize, that while a Munro might not kill me, it wouldmost probably leave me very sore for a long time and that’s no fun on a two weeks vacation with an exhausting 4 days music festival at the end.
I still plan to go on some walks / hikes while I’m in Scotland, so I’ve started to go through the travel guides and websites to look for nice things to do. I also went on a 2nd hike yesterday to test the other pair of boots I own and realized those don’t feel quite right for the terrain either. So I went out to buy a new pair this afternoon. Don’t ask.
Here are a few snap-shots from yesterday’s trial walk.
Another mini break I’m actually executing right now, while I’m typing this, is not being at the local politics campaign meeting, because I need a break from all of that. The issues, the people, the conversations, the way it’s executed… Vague, I know, but I’m just sooooo tired. And staying away is a form of selfcare as well.
I’ve been thinking more and more about how much I (and other women I assume) take on and shoulder and carry and worry about. All that worry. I know I sometimes still worry too much over insignifcan things. Re local politics staying away at least helps with not being tasked with more decisions to worry about or tasks to be assigned. It limits the risk of taking on yet another task, just because nobody else volunteers 🙂
Here I had typed a paragraph about work and deleted it, because it was vague and basically nonesensical. It’s time I go on vacation in Scotland where I’ll be able to write about places and experiences and share lots and lots of photos.
