20.04.2023 | “I’ve Been Lost More Than Found”

Lyrics: “Little Changes” ~ Frank Turner, 2018

My mood has been a bit of a roller coaster recently. To be honest it’s plummeted after the lovely time in the UK and I guess that’s kind of normal and expected. I just hate that it seems to be all or nothing for me. Why can’t I do things in moderation? Be a bit sad that the time is over and a bit grumpy that I’m back at work, but still manage to be a functioning grown-up with a job and stuff?

I did alright on the job, don’t worry, but I was slacking as much as I could and then of course I felt bad and guilty about slacking. Which did not help to bring my mood up. Is that the right term as opposite of “bringing the mood down”? It feels a bit strange to me. Anyway, I’ve been somehow coasting through the week so far. Often disappointed with myself and still no clear path out of it until I sat down this morning and wrote a list of tiny achievable goals for today and some kind of timetable of when to do them. In the hope that I then might I actually do them. It seems to work in a way so far. Thank God!

Maybe I just (still) need to catch up on sleep? Thank God it’s almost Friday. I’ve got nothing more to say, which sometimes makes me wonder, why I still keep this site up. I have some ideas and some thoughts I might want to share. But especially the thoughts right now are often of the “being annoyed about something / someone” kind. And I’m not sure I want to spend my time and energy with writing about being annoyed. I could and should use my time for something better.

Here is another photo from London and maybe I’ll manage to go through the rest of them this weekend to find a few nice ones. I might head out with my camera tomorrow afternoon though, so who knows which photos will take precedent.

London Eye and London County Hall by night, April 2023

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